to life...
we blame more than understand
life is actually not to live the days we love
but to love the days we live...

that quote seems simple but really hard to do.
i am in the middle of the hard day, but not the hardest day... i've done it before.
but i am trying to struggle this time.
afraid, worry, negative things come rounds me
the feeling: i'm useless is coming in my head.
move forward, i will losing things that I've just earned
move backward, i'm stuck
to the left or right, i don't know the direction
just look up and pray to my only One
what should i do?
i don't know the answer for sure...
i've decided... a big movement
is it the right thing?
i can't say
is it bad thing?
no.
so i decided do it... even it's risk full, but i've choiced.
it's not the best, but better for me or others
i am trying to keep a little light of hope...
i know nothing, but He does.
i am sure He will make a way like in the past...
a good thing in a good time..
when time is perfect, i will get the perfect thing
i believe it.
i believe Him.

-waiting a miracle-