A cup of comfort

One day i decided to walk into my library. My eyes can't resist for 1 book for it's cover and title sooo good. A cup of comfort... Well this is one book that i need this time. It will give me a joy for reading and should be "able" to comfort me... right? So i took to the librarian and borrowed it.

At home, i couldn't wait to read that book. It's gonna be my great evening yay! (:
I opened page to page... and for days i red it's kindda make me disappointed... the book is not too good.... It's not make me "comfort". The stories just... I don't know, not touchy at all. It's very different from my fav book ever : Chicken Soup series. When i read Chicken Soup series, i can weep my eyes my hundred times and that book is v.great. Well i think i was fool by interesting cover and title ;p

i take my melo day... this day

maybe i shouldn't write about this... but i have a right to feel down sometimes. Yes this is august, my father's bday... it supposed to be his day. A month that always brings me to the sadness ever. A month that take me flash back years ago when i still had him. But maybe enough about this. It almost 3 years past and i must just let him go

Today i declaim this day as my melo day haha maybe too much hah? But it's true... I feel v.melo this day. I feel useless and incompetent. I feel so low and can't reach further. 

Today is the day that i wish i have a better life than i do now. The day that makes me regret something useless. The day that makes me pray for the smooth way... The day that i wish i could have something to be proud of... But this day is the day that makes me realize... i don't have any of those.. Makes me realize, the tears can't fall because i'm too da*n tire, burn out.... and need some air. Makes me realize... i don't have hope anymore...

But maybe if i save a little light like i used to be, maybe .... just maybe... it can save me from this hell... So, i think, i'm just doing my part with my v.best, pray to Thee... have a faith in Thy name... i'll become His fav daughter....




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