i take my melo day... this day

maybe i shouldn't write about this... but i have a right to feel down sometimes. Yes this is august, my father's bday... it supposed to be his day. A month that always brings me to the sadness ever. A month that take me flash back years ago when i still had him. But maybe enough about this. It almost 3 years past and i must just let him go

Today i declaim this day as my melo day haha maybe too much hah? But it's true... I feel v.melo this day. I feel useless and incompetent. I feel so low and can't reach further. 

Today is the day that i wish i have a better life than i do now. The day that makes me regret something useless. The day that makes me pray for the smooth way... The day that i wish i could have something to be proud of... But this day is the day that makes me realize... i don't have any of those.. Makes me realize, the tears can't fall because i'm too da*n tire, burn out.... and need some air. Makes me realize... i don't have hope anymore...

But maybe if i save a little light like i used to be, maybe .... just maybe... it can save me from this hell... So, i think, i'm just doing my part with my v.best, pray to Thee... have a faith in Thy name... i'll become His fav daughter....

- The one who's need help -